take a bite of my heart



(yoooo. morning morning ahahaha i'm kidding it's actually night.)

so i actually wrote this entry last night but because i was tired i didn't finish this. and now, November 21st 2012 i am finally writing this thing!

Sooooooooooooooooooo today is practically a waste of time. Like most days in school, instead of learning something (we did, the ratio isn't enough though hahahah) we played and read and basically RELAXED LIKE WHOA. That is not conducive learning atmosphere btw.

But right now we're having a biology experiment. Well had, cause it's done. And it's pretty cool playing with tweezers and pretending you're a dentist or at least trying to force feed people cotton balls, ha. Beside me is the lovely Nadia Utami al Hadi, who made a joke about how losing a heart is the easiest loss. I'm not laughing I swear, because that's just so lame. And now she's laughing. get off, Nadia. Don't make me tell you off like a cat.

I'm a bit pissed off right now because someone decided that asking my class their college application preferences is proper and the fact that he either forgets or lies about his own class' college applications just made me so freaking upset. GODDAMN IT MAN, MAN UP WILL YOU?

I sort of hate that guy because he just disappoints me too many times. I know I'm not supposed to put hope in someone I don't even know that well, but he's the one that started the whole thing. I'm just another junior asking about things, and he's made it personal; like some kind of private therapy session (the talks we share, I mean). And when it's my turn to depend on him, he turns his back on me and pretends he doesn't know. When I bet he knows all along, that motherfucker. Sorry I cuss too much I'm just too upset right now to be a ~*~proper~*~ student.

Oh for God's sake, I hate being proper. Why can't I just be myself and act like I don't care the way I used to do back in middle school? It's much easier to live that way, keeping distance from everyone to avoid this sort of confusion and disappointment. It's pretty hard to concentrate when you have something else keeping you up, you know.

Okay, end rant. Before someone decides to look over my shoulder and read this whole thing (even though this will totally get published for public reading).


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