settle down, it'll all be clear
don't pay no mind to the demons they fill you with fear
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a good night, lads and gents! tomorrow i shall be leaving for Jakarta to receive a medal to honor my achievements (eaa). no i'm not a war hero, i'm just someone who made it to the top 1% of English ICAS test ;)
it's a darn shame that writing only gets me to Credit. if i had known it was narrative (for fuck's sake!) i would've been much more relaxed and told myself to be imaginative. instead i am stuck in "fight mode" in which i tend to analyze things critically and thus the wording of the whole writing is a bit odd for a narrative. i hate myself sometimes.
oh well. never mind the obvious facts. did i mention i love poetry now? sort of anyway, i fell in love with Crush by Richard Siken. I love the whole thing, really. it's so wonderful and enlightening to read.
you're in a car with a beautiful boy. and he won't tell you he loves you, but he loves you. and you feel like you've done something terrible, like robbed a liquor store, or swallowed pills, or shoveled yourself a grave in the dirt, and you're tired.
you're in a car with a beautiful boy, and you're trying not tell him that you love him, and you're trying to choke down the feeling, and you're trembling. and he reaches over and he touches you, like a prayer for which no words exist, and you feel your heart taking root in your body, like you've discovered something you didn't even have a name for.
so good. i dreamed of a movie using this quote, it was gorgeously heartbreaking.
i'm getting sleepy, so consider this a quick update haha! talk to you later bloooog :P
Labels: l word, life, poetry, school
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