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Just leave me your stardust
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turn down the light
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come on skinny love
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It's almost like loving
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All the time, darling now all the time
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fanmix project! whooooooooo
this will be titled:
(you are) the reason
the backset of this mix is actually a story i made up in my head, of an undergrad falling for her TA who is about 5-8 years older than her. she's still 18, but she already feels like she's found her one true love, and he likes her, but he doesn't want this to be serious. but wrong turn mister: it got serious - and he's falling for her too though he doesn't want to because he thinks she should be with someone her age, someone who could actually feel the exhilaration of being in love instead of being cynical with the state of it.
long story short, they broke up. and a few years down the road she still remembers him, of how he made her feel and what he had taught her through their relationship, and thinks that maybe she can't really let him go.
(and maybe God gives them a second chance later. maybe.)
this mix is made from her point of view. and overall the theme of this is young love and heartbreak, and missed out chances.
cover
tracklist.
soon i'll post this baby on tumblr. buuuut not now because i have tons of things to do and waiting for mediafire to finish uploading the .zip file is so not on the list. har har doing this is fun, maybe i should log on to tumblr and post some actual pictures instead of reblogging :P
oh and since there's no lyrical quotes to begin the entry, let me post this down below:
and i'm feeling like a newborn child every time i get a chance to see you smile
it's not complicated, i was so jaded
Labels: actors rpf, au actually, fanmix
Saturday, November 3, 2012
8:19 PM
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Monster
Well you're a hot mess and I'm falling for you And I'm like, 'hot damn!', let me make you my boo
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You know, fanmixes are fun ^^ Just stating the obvious here.
Right now, I'm indulging in the joy of FST-sharing. Yeah, I shared a FST. FINALLY.
Remind me to finish that one for Raikou/Raimei, Thobari/Asahi, and (in the future) Abe/Mihashi. Yeeaaah, still not sure about the last one.
Maybe I should write down what songs I'd need for them.
Raikou/Raimei: Something that has undertones of trust, affection, something savior like, or anything like that.
Thobari/Asahi: GODDAMN THIS ONE'S HARD. Okay, maybe songs that could actually relate to the failed plan to remove the Shinrabansho from Asahi's body? Thobari's doubts about the plan? Asahi's sure confidence (or is it a mask?) that everything's going to be alright? Sort of stuff like that.
Abe/Mihashi: FUUUUUUUUUUUU---- Need. Songs. Abe, Mihashi. Journey. Koshien. BATTERY. *cough*
Heh, find me the songs, I'll give you an internet cookie :3 Labels: fanmix
Saturday, September 11, 2010
8:03 PM
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Getting Lost
What now kid? Which way love? Will we ever make up and be friends?
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Hellooooooo world!
As you can see, I've put up a banner for the blog. That way we can all dance to the color of rainbow every time I mention Owlzama's name ^^
It's my birthday. 14th birthday (yes I'm OLD)
And I was like, 'dude, last year my birthday was nothing!' and this year, it's a bit better. I think.
If not for the heavy war atmosphere going on in the house. You know, I hate it ==" so effing much.
But it's fiiiiiiiineeeee, dude, really. I kid you not.
On other news, I've downloaded so many fanmixes~ Most of them are KHR related though :/ 'm sorry that I can't find anything good in the DN or Nabari fandom.
AND I'M OFFICIALLY READING KHR. WOOOOOOT!
And I've become another fan of Tsunayoshi Sawada X3 (of course, not as much as I love Raikou-san.. but perhaps equal to my fading love for Nia-tan)
I shall promise you this: FROM NOW ON I WILL DO MY BEST TO THE EXTREME! AS IN, I WILL WRITE EXTREMELY GREAT FANFICS! AND COLOR MANGAS EXTREMELY GREAT!
And that is all ^^ Labels: blog, fandom, fanmix, khr, life, manga
Sunday, July 25, 2010
4:20 PM
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She lays her halo on the pillow
You are made of sugar, milk, and molasses So little darling you attract all the bees
--- Muahahahaha! Tomorrow is the FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL!
*cue Apocalypse theme*
Yes, goodbye freedom. Goodbye Nabari no Ou - Raikou-san I'll miss yewwww!!! T.T - goodbye manga colouring, goodbye KHR, goodbye fanfiction wonderland...
AND GOODBYE WORLD AS WE KNOW IT. HOTDAMN *slaps*
So yeah, I spent this morning trying to get the pace in the KHR game. I know, why would I, someone who majored Bleach and kicks ass at Godfather I + II, Scarface, and Godzilla: Monsters Unleashed would want to master a foolish game like that?
..it's not foolish. Say it again and I'll bite you to death.
So I tried out Yamamoto Takeshi first, versus Squalo. And won via time-up. I was like, dammit!arghghaghoagoroghregoeahgo. So I chose some other characters. And guess what;
I found my killer instincts in HDW!Tsuna <3
Considering that I'm the first one to try out the basic moves in the game, it's actually pretty stupid for me to get the hang of the game just now. I mean, for fuck's sake I've tried it two weeks ago! *facepalm*
Oh and can I say I'm addicted to 'Toxic Valentine'? Yeah thanks.
THE SONG ROCKS DUDE. AND SO OMFG - HOT. IT'S LIKE, SEX ON EARPHONES.
LOL JK. It's not that great, though it is great...
Do you know what fanmix included that song? Yes. A fanmix for Bianchi. FTW!
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In other news, Anime News Network confirmed Nabari's ending in September! FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK!!!
I shall grief for Raikou-san with my whole life. If there's only some way to bring him to life *sighs like a classic fangirl*
Yuhki Kamatani-sensei, I hope you will make a new manga, with a Shimizu Raikou lookalike (and preferably having some sort of relationship with a Shimizu Raimei and/or Rokujou Miharu lookalike XD)
(...scratch that. YUKIMI/RAIKOU FUCKING RULES!)
Haahhh, I'm getting so worked up over everything.. I guess I'll never get a rest won't I?
So this is the end for this week. Ciao bitches.
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WAIT!!! THERE'S SOMETHING I HAVE TO SHOW YOU!
now I can die peacefully <333 (1827 PWNS!) Labels: 1827love, faaaabulous raikou, fanmix, fuck, khr, kyou-san, nabari no ou, pairings, pic, rant, school
Sunday, July 11, 2010
8:15 PM
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This is side one
A rivalry goes so deep Between me and this lack of sleep over you
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TOMORROW: First day of school. Yay. Woot woot.
Can you sense sarcasm dripping out of my pores?
Honestly, I hate going to school tomorrow if it's just for three, four hours. I mean, seriously? We can all pray together some other time.
It's a good thing I'm unavailable tomorrow~~~
*cue creepy theme song*
And hey, do you know that Nabari no Ou is going to end in the next three/four chapters?! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
NO MORE RAIKOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOUUUUUUUUUUUUU
NO MORE shotacon YUKIMI AND/OR PEDOBARIIIIII
NO MORE MIHARU-KUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUNNN!!!!
And what's worse is that Yoite still hasn't made an appearance yet! This is, insulting; to say the least >.<
I want to see Yoite.. To know how's he doing after Miharu granted his wish. I'm pretty sure he's not really erased, Miharu accidentally slipped in some of his feelings and wishes into Yoite's wish. So I really, really hope there will be some sort of epilogue or something that shows Miharu and Yoite Sora Kodou meeting; if there's not enough time to finish the story.
I hope Kamatani-sensei doesn't rush the ending... Or I will be a sad fangirl T.T
Besides, who wants to repeat the whole DN charade? As brilliant as it was, introducing characters like Nia-tan (<3) and Mero-chan, it's still not as enjoyable as the first arc.. I really miss the whole Light goes batshit crazy during his initial confrontation with L. XDD
AND OH YEAH, I'M LIKING KHR RIGHT NOW. NO, SERIOUSLY.
BUT FOREVER, I SHALL STILL FAP OVER NEAR - because he's just, adorable! *squee*
It's 16 days away from my birthday, and do you know what I want?
1. Some doujinshi - right now preferrably 1827 or 5927 or MN (or M2N.. *is shot*) 2. All volumes of Bakuman that's already released 3. Maybe a DVD bundle of Nabari no Ou? *crosses finger* 4. Some fanart.. Maybe 1827? or YukimiRaikou? X3 5. ...fanmixes?
AND I'M CURRENTLY WORKING ON A RAIKOU/??? FST. YEAH BABY, BRING ON THE FABULOUSHNESSH OF RAIKOU-SAMA.
I've already made the cover for a Raikou/Raimei one.. but still haven't made a list of songs for them.
On the other hand, I've been listening to some songs for a Yukimi/Raikou FST. And put some songs to make a mini (for now) playlist for Miharu/Yoite. Really, it's hard to find a song about Raikou and Raimei.
AND I'VE DL-ED A LOT OF FSTS! And listening to them! And fapping over the effing gorgeous covers! WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!
*falls from chair* Labels: death note, faaaabulous raikou, fandom, fanmix, khr, life, miharu-kuuun, school, yoite
Friday, July 9, 2010
10:26 PM
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A Kingdom Now Lost
Except that tiny bit, on how I just can't commit There is some truth in what you say
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I think I have a new obsession right now.
Or obsession s.
I realize now I like to make FST of some couples that I adore (or just make a playlist of my current mood), and I like to watch anime on Animax more often, and I'm hooked on Kuroshitsuji. And Bleach. And Bakuman. (I wanna read Hetalia, but I didn't remember the last chapter I read)
ARRRGGGHHH!
I'm currently facing a possibility that the Pesirah quiz will come next week or the week after that. I hate quizes. Period.
And I'm still confused on which high school I'm gonna apply to. I really, really want to go to Xaverius 1, but parents keeps telling me to go to 17 JHS.
Fuck. If I go to Xaverius, then I'd meet more Chinese. And having to face the possibility of discrimination. And I hate something like that. I don't give a shit to all the Christianity stuff. Hell, even William's a Buddhist and he's fine with it.
If I go to 17 JHS, there'd be a lot of competitions. I like competitions. But the orientation period, IDK if I can handle it. As much as I love drowning myself in water (which I absolutely hate), I'm not a fan of physical stuff.
And do you know we're gonna have midterms two weeks from now? Yeah, it's fucking fantastic!
I just wanna sleep in sometimes, y'know, skip school and such. Like Ashirogi Muto.
...I finished GF II yesterday. Loads of fun, but I don't think I'd play it again like Godfather on Wii. The gaming experience, it's just a bit, stiff. I like it better when you can really punch a guy or shoot him wildly. S'yeah, I'm gonna keep waiting for the time EA announce they're developing a Wii version of it.
Oh hey, on that fanmix thingy, I made one for MN! Finally!
It's a bit crack intended though. So don't be surprised to find stupid songs that are too indirect or something like that.
I won't post the cover, since I only made one for it. *don't look at me like that, MattNear is still my OTP you know!*
And I really want to find a site with excellent Digimon fanarts -_- Labels: fanmix, life, random, rant, school
Sunday, February 28, 2010
6:43 PM
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Your Last Day
These humans all suck, I'd rather be home feeling violent and lonely
I'm not trying to sound so insincere,
But the postcard that's taped to the freezer reads "Wish you were here"
How I wish I could disappear
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Three days before the showdown.
YES THE FINAL SHOWDOWN.
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Teru Mikami was supposed to go to the bank today. With Gevanni following. It's assumed he goes to the bank around this date. So when he goes to the bank again tomorrow, Gevanni's suspicion arose.
And in my fic, 'Twenty', on this day Matt and Near were supposed to say their goodbyes in SPK HQ.
And around midnight, Mello would write his letter, directed to Near and Shore (one for Matt, but he's not sure if they'd both survive).
Seriously. Tomorrow will be very depressing. For me at least. Nah, IDK. Maybe it'll just be the best day of my life.
I hope I can publish that part of Twenty on my LJ. Come on, everyone needs a dose of Matt/Near love, right? Okay, maybe not. Because I almost post it and I was such a coward I closed the tab -_-
BUT EVERYONE STILL NEEDS A DOSE OF MY OTP!
Besides those MM shippers must be crying because their so-called OTP are going to die tomorrow >:(
I think I should post a picspam. And yes I'm gonna do one, right now. But I'm not gonna post a lot, save it for tomorrow I guess.
Fanmix anyone?
HAPPY THOUGHTS. THINK HAPPY THOUGHTS.
This is oh-so bothersome.
BTW if you want to download that MN fanmix - Pretence, Glances, and Messed Up Chances - you can do so here.
Use the MegaUpload one, because SendSpace is such a bitch.
Seriously, CAN ANY OF YOU BUY ME THOSE DOUJINS BY TIROL? I WAAAAAAAAANNTT THEM.
So.
Fucking.
Much.
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BTW did you hear? Someone broke up *gasps dramatically* at school. And someone *nudgenudge* hooked up :D
Seriously at school there's too much drama. My poor brain can't handle it.
Remind me to never go out with anyone at school. They're such freaks.
Labels: death note, fanmix, MATT, matt/near, MELLO-CHAN, picspam, random, rant
Monday, January 25, 2010
11:33 PM
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Paper Hearts - A MattNear Fanmix
Yes. Fanmix time! I did it! A Matt/Near one of course ;)
DL Link
Sorry for the whole four parts thingy. Box.net won't accept the file if it exceeds 25MB and uploading to Mediafire took me forever :(
PAPER HEARTS - A Matt/Near Fanmix
Track listing:
1. My Paper Heart - All American Rejects
Please just don't play with me, my paper heart will bleed
This wait for destiny won't do, be with me please I'll beseech you
Simple things that make you run away
Catch you if I can
Matt's telling Near to keep his heart safe. Or something like that. You know he hates waiting, or at least my Matt is.
2. W.A.M.S. - Fall Out Boy
Hurry, hurry
You put my head in such a flurry, flurry
What makes you so special?
What makes you so special?
I'm gonna leave you
I'm gonna teach you
How we're all alone
This would be the song that fits Matt when he thinks about Near and was like 'who the hell is he?' and 'why do I care so much about him?' or something like that.
3. Heartbeat - Stereo Skyline
So baby keep my heart beat, beat, beat, beatin'
She's the soul reason I keep believing
That we're gonna die like this you know, oh, oh, oh
They'd listen to this when they're together xD And Matt would just drag Near to dance, even though Near doesn't want to yet they had so much fun...
4. Damned If I Do Ya (Damned If I Don't) - All Time Low
Don't make a fool of myself
When you hang around
When you're gone
I'm a match that's burning out
Could have been, should have done
What I said I was going to do
...Title says all perhaps. Hesitation. Afraid of rejection. In the end, if they had been more brave they could be together.
DO I HAVE TOO MANY SONGS FROM MATT'S POV?
5. Used To - Daughtry
We used to have this figured out
We used to breathe without a doubt
The nights were clearer for the first time that I'd see
We used to have this under control
We never thought we used to know
At least there's you
And at least there's me
Can we get this back?
Can we get this back?
To how it used to be
After Mello's departure though. All consistency between everyone in the orphanage was broken. This includes Matt and Near. Matt sank into some kind of depression for losing his buddy, Near blames himself for letting Mello go.
6. Fell In Love Without You - Motion City Soundtrack
Last night I fell in love without you
I waved goodbye to that heart of mine beating solo on your lawn
Matt fell in love with Near, without Mello of course xD
BUT THIS IS NOT GOING TO BE A SONG ABOUT PREVIOUS MM RELATIONSHIP! FUCK THOSE SHIPPERS!
7. Dead On Arrival - Fall Out Boy
This is side one
Flip me over
I know I'm not your favorite record
The songs you grow to like never stick at first
So I'm writing you a chorus
And here is your verse
Near's always there for Matt during his ups and downs. But he couldn't help but feel small in comparison to Mello, who was always number one for Matt because they're buddies. He wants Matt to notice him more, rather than come to him in his needs only.
8. Lost In You - Three Days Grace
You try to lie and say I was everything
I remember when I said I'm nothing without you
I'm nothing without you
Somehow I found a way to get lost in you
Let me inside, let me get close to you
Change your mind, I'll get lost if you want me to
Somehow I found a way to get lost in you
Near is a complicated human being. Matt doesn't object to this statement.
9. Franklin - Paramore
Could you remind me of a time when we were so alive?
Do you remember that? Do you remember that?
Could you help me push aside all that I have left behind?
Do you remember that? Do you remember that?
Yeah. After Mello left everything turned gloomy. They turned to each other for comfort. I think this is where it all really begin.
10. Cambridge - Motion City Soundtrack
With visitations from the underwhelmed,
Five years she fears to hold my broken head.
Why were you gone? Why were you gone so long?
She is the reason that I still believe...
Hold my hand,
Where storms are sand.
And sand is said,
To be sad.
This song could fits Matt's feeling when he was left by Mello, or in some AU version in which he survives the Takada incident. His mind, and soul was tortured. And yet no one can see it.The line she is the reason that I still believe refers to...
Yes. Near.
11. Stuck On You - Paramore
I thought I'd drop you easily
But that was not to be
You burrowed like a summer tic
So you invade my sleep and confuse my dreams
Turn my nights to sleepless itch
Stuck on you 'till the end of time
I'm too tired to fight your rhyme
Stuck on you 'till the end of time
you've got me paralyzed
Near couldn't forget Matt, or Mello for that matter (But we'll focus on Matt because this is a Matt/Near fanmix after all). Every night he'd dream of lazy summer days, afternoons in autumn and cold winter nights when they were children. His mind completely stuck on Matt.
12. Feel Like Rain - Motion City Soundtrack
And we feel like rain,
When the words all sound the same,
In the lifeless corners of this empty frame
We love that game, but we never play
'Cause we will lose and we wanna stay
The way we are, the way we've been
For far too long
Kira case took a lot from them. They suffer, they burn, they went mad, yadda yadda yadda. But it's all for the greater good.
13. All I Wanted - Paramore
Think of me, when you're out, when you're out there
I'm begging nice on my knees
And when the world treats you way to fairly
It's a shame I'm a dream
I could follow you to the beginning
Just relive the start
Maybe then we'd remember to slow down
On all of our favorite parts
Can be interpreted both ways. In the end, the only thing they loved most was the feel of being alive in the presence of the other.
...All I wanted was you. Nothing else.
Labels: death note, fanmix, matt/near
Saturday, January 23, 2010
11:58 PM
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My Paper Heart
Please just don't play with me
My paper heart will bleed
This wait for destiny won't do
Be with me please I'll beseech you
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I was gonna share a fanmix I just made, a Matt/Near one at that. But I'm having trouble with the download link. So yeah. I fail. I'll just leave the cover here.
Okay, now: Doujinshi sharing time!
Pairing: L/Light, Mello/Near, Light/Mello, L/Near, L/Mello, Light/Near (yep. It's so confusing)
Rating: Worksafe. AKA NO PR0N. HAHA.
Summary: Family time. Usual stuff. Mello's jealous of Near and Near's jealous of Light, and Light's jealous of... yeah. All possible six pairings in a row. I think it's pretty nice, the story line I mean. Oh yes, AU!
Pairing: None. Maybe one sided Halle/Mello because she's a total pedo for him and one sided Near/Mello. I SAW HINTS OF GEVANNI/NEAR HERE TOO!
Really. I WILL NOT CONSIDER MM AS A PAIRING. NEVER.
Rating: PG
Summary: High school AU. Near's like the class rep and Gevanni's his lackey. And both Ms are BFFs BUT NOT GAY FOR EACH OTHER. And in the end it has a nice fight scene vs. Rod Ross. Fuck yeah!
Pairing: L/Mello
Rating: G. One, chaste kiss only, I swear!
Summary: IDK it's fluff. Seriously, child!Mello is soooo cute! I was like 'AWWWWWWWW and then go 'NAWWWWWW' and go 'AWWWWW' again :D
And another one, though it's not for download...
Made by rubbersoul, who I have to give credits for making Near as awesome as possible. It's for Mello's birthday, can you believe that? Akane made a sad one, something about last birthday or something something.
So yeah. The end of the looong doujin post. Hope you guys will read the ratings first, or the summary at least. Don't want to download some PWP again, right? *grins*
Labels: death note, doujin, fail, fanmix, MATT, matt/near, mello/near, NIA-TAN
8:33 PM
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Burn Baby Burn
Feelings that I can't disguise
And never will be reconciled
Oh something inside has died
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Today was fine. Yesterday I drew Niizuma Eiji! Y'know, from Bakuman. 'Cause he's awesome and I like awesome guys. I won't say no to pretty ones too.
And yesterday, I found some site called 'Husky' or something. It's right here.
Near's a girl. But somewhat slutty I guess. And Mello is wayy to seme! I don't really like man!Mello. I like the girly one :D
 Oh and I downloaded some MN fanmix yesterday too. See? Matt/Near doesn't have any fanmix of any sort :(
It's called 'Pretence, Glances, and Messed Up Chances'.
The cover's pretty, don't you think? I think the art's from Ai Love Love. Because she (?) draws Mello in that easily distinguished way.
The eyes. Look at the eyes first. Then the shape of the face, and the nose, and mouth. Lastly, the hair. Yes, people draws Mello hair differently too.
But Near... Many would draw him pantless (YES PANT-LESS) with his pj tops only. I think it's kinda funny. He truly looks like a kid that way xD
Do you know what I want to do right now? Practice guitar. Maybe some 'Bizarre Love Triangle' or 'Chasing Cars'? Just for future preparation :D
Oh and about that multi chaptered story I did for EF, I did a re-design of the outline, and instead of Natalie killing herself out of insanity - everything was just a dream.
The first part's the same. It begins when Matt found Mihael's body. Then he called Natalie. She fainted.
After the funeral, she saw Mihael. He swore he's gonna make her go through the same things he did. Unfortunately, things were made difficult for him because of Matt.
Four days after Nate and Matt went out, Matt dies in his sleep. Seeing the troubled look on his face Nate concludes Mihael killed him.
Then they got into a fight. Mihael explained why he committed suicide. It's because Nate exclaimed she truly hates Mihael. She said the rivalry came first. He shot back by saying the rivalry was because of them. So yeah, they both realized their lives actually revolved around each other.
Mihael apologized, and said he'd wait for her on the other side - the afterlife. When he reached out his hand to hold Nate's, she wakes up.
Apparently she was still unconscious when she fainted in Mihael's room. Matt was there, but he fell asleep. She wakes him up and glad it was all a dream.
After Matt left, and told her to get ready for the funeral, she still feels something was watching her. From afar of course.
Yeah. Long story short. IDK I think it's pretty exciting. Just as exciting as I got this pic:
Yes. That's M falling asleep in class :DDDD
Labels: death note, fanmix, MELLO-CHAN, mello/near, NIA-TAN, random, site, story
Thursday, January 21, 2010
5:45 PM
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