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turn down the light
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come on skinny love
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inspiration list (a personal memo)
1. set yourself on fire
see previous post here. TA and undergrad meets, falls for each other, breaks up. sort of inspired by many cookleta fics out there BUT THIS ONE IS HET. not that i don't like slash or anything haha.
so undergrad (portrayed by the lovely Rooney Mara) sort of likes her philosophy TA (Andrew Garfield, like ew). they begin dating without each of them knowing what they're getting into. somewhere along the way, she realizes he might be the one (DUNDUNDUNN) and he realizes she might be the one (cue double DUNDUNDUNNN). the thing is, while she's okay with that, though a bit scared, he's scared shitless. because what 18 year-old girl in their right mind would fall for him? he's a cynic, dull, and so freaking sarcastic. she should be with someone who's more optimistic, more vibrant, more alive. someone who embraces the idea of being in love with someone positively instead of outright denying it.
so the two walk in a fine line between i-love-you-s and we-need-space. eventually, he can't take it anymore. he tells her he needs his space, she gets hurt, and they fight. he basically tells her that he's letting her go /Come Back to Me: now playing/ and she's upset that he's not willing to fight for her /Skinny Love: now playing/. they break up with obvious ill-feelings towards the other.
time skip a few years later; she's studying her graduate program in a college somewhere that's not the same one where she met Mr. TA. somehow, the lack of relationships bother her and she tries to date. but she ends up comparing every single one of them to her man (or is it ex-man?). when a chance encounter brings them together once more, she's determined not to let him slip through her fingers. although she's come to peace with the fact that they weren't meant to be, she also realizes that they're just the right thing at the wrong time.
/and this is the part where they presumably fix the burned bridges :)/
notes: to be written in an irregular timeline (meaning it skips through moments, kinda like 500 days of summer but less confusing)
2. you go talk to your friends
a highschool!AU that Annisa Arum Melati requested. the prompt was this: taylor swift and bella thorne. i don't know if she means it as a pair or not but whatever. i'll work on it ;)
so tay and bel (haha, kinda like taco bell) are sort of friends but not friends. their parents think they're friends, but they're not actually that close. you know, the sort of friends who you don't consider your closest friend yet you end up telling everything to them? yes that friend. in high school, the tension between them is exacerbated by the fact that they're both straining to be popular. yes, popular.
i'm not a fan of stereotypes, but for the sake of simplicity and the state of my head let's just say that one of them becomes a sort of outcast and the other became a pop queen. they're still friends-not-friends but they're hanging with different groups and it's sorta hard to hang when your friends don't like who you're hanging with.
so let's say there's some big event that both want to join (the school forensic club perhaps?). and they both made it. and they are stuck as partners. and somehow the awkwardness of being a not-friend and hanging with different crews and not liking each other is making everything worse, and that's not what they want. they mend their friendship, form an actual friendship, and actually win the nationals.
notes: so it's like hsm meets mean girls, sorta, but i don't think that's the correct interpretation. because honestly mean girls > hsm har har
so currently that's all i have. sorry to disappoint, but i think i'm gonna continue writing more ~inspirations~ instead of actual fics because i fail.
Labels: fail, plot bunnies, project, story
Saturday, November 3, 2012
9:05 PM
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Ahoy My Sweet!
I get lost, messed up, and bored if I'm alone too long I can't sleep without chattering when I'm not with someone Late last fall she ended it all and moved to who knows where Just like that, she vanished and packed and never even call
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Oh hi guys! How's it goin'?
I'm hyper, HYPER I SAY. Of course I am ;D
So yeah, last week's been hell with a little touch of heaven here and there..
So I won this competition, got closer to a lot of friends, and even seemingly has another BFF to add to the list :3
But I'm getting freaking annoyed; I'm getting a coooold!
Argh, this is so frustrating -_-
And sis keeps commenting on how I can't keep my hands off my phone now... Heh, like I'd care. It's fun talking to people that you really get along with.
Oh, and yesterday Husnul bought Bleach no. 20 and 21 for me, plus Kuroshitsuji volume 8~
Can I say that I'm even more ecstatic?
But tomorrow, it's gonna be major hell >,<
...yep. Major hell indeed. WHY THE HELL CAN'T I BE A GUY FOR FUCK'S SAKES?
Being a girl is so, so.. difficult.
Yes, DIFFICULT. ALL I CAN DO IS OGLE OVER NEAR >:(
NOOOO, THE ONLY THING THAT SUCKS ASS IS THAT NEAR IS NOT ALIIIIIIIIIIIIVEEEE
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On another side note, I wrote this story for the Short Story Contest.. I think I'm gonna post it on my fic blog, how's that sound?
So, this'll be the main intro:
Title: Equivalent Trade Fandom: Mixed: Death Note, Fullmetal Alchemist, The Quest Pairings/Characters: Nate, Mihael, Selim, The Gatekeeper, The Seal Keeper Genre: Fantasy/Family/Friendship Story Type: Multi-Chaptered Summary: When one believes that nothing's worth more than knowledge, his belief is tested when the only one he holds dear is dead as a result of a Rebound. Now he has to face the consequences, and try to find a way to bring him back.
How's that huh? Nice, isn't it? :D Labels: life, random, story
Monday, April 26, 2010
9:17 PM
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Kicking In
I had sworn to myself that I'm content with loneliness Because none of it was ever worth the risk
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Aww, I love that song. The quote is the line used in this story. It's awfully sweet, though a bit random. But sweet ^o^
Anyways, this is the first day of school without some friends because they're going on a trip to Jakarta for some actual Sister School program. Honestly I thought if our school has a sister school that means there would be some student exchange program, but it seems I'm wrong.
I had loads of fun today. Sitting with Via isn't that bad, Shinta and Bella are nice too. Well the rest of them are nice. And I hope someone will remember to buy me a necklace!
 Well it started like this: this morning I found out my Byakushin wasn't with me when I had a shower, so I half-panicked, and decided to quickly finish my shower to find him. Apparently, he's under my pillow. Silly Byakuya!
So then it turned out that my necklace was growing old and rusty (even though it's only been a few months) compared to the old L necklace. So mom fixed it :D
Argh, silly Byakushin! And do you know my sister now has a crush on DOCTOR NEAR?
Yesssh, I shouldn't let her read Spoiled Sanity in the first place. Now she wants to be like Mihael/Mihi/Mello. And she accused me of being Matt-ish (mind you, in that story Matt is a cold-blooded killer). WHICH I AM NOT.
Geez, I like Doctor Near, he's nice and all, but I DON'T LIKE THE MATT. NO. JUST NO.
Isn't it an irony that I hate that Matt but I love Doctor Matt? Especially when the doctor's patient is a certain albino named NATE but mostly known as NEAR? Oh sweet irony, both stories are written by the same author >.<
But the second story, called Thief, is more shota. Why? Because it has adult!Matt x weakteenager!Near. IT IS SO WIN. BUT THE ENDING, WHY DID MIHAEL DIEEEEEE?
It seems people agree that Mello wouldn't die for anything or anyone but Near XD
OH TRUE LOOOOVVVEEEE. IT OUTSHINES MY OTP!
ARRGGHH NOOO! I'M VANISHING! I'M VANISHING! *poof*
(....But we all know that Matt doesn't really want to help Mello during the explosion, because he's now in love with Near.....) Labels: byakushin, l word, life, matt/near, school, story
Monday, April 12, 2010
11:05 PM
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Fic Recommendations PART I
Because neither of them want to say goodbye, and that's how Matt wants to remember Near.
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Now I shall give you links to my all time favorite stories! Whoo!!! BTW that was a quote from a story...
Note: MattNear. You could practically hear Matt's heart breaking throughout the whole fic. Beautiful. Really, I kid you not. BTW it's hardcore yaoi guys. I'm more interested in the feeling of it though :D
Note: MelloNear. FLUFF! Fluffy fluffy fluff. Excuse the chocolate easter egg there, it doesn't really matter.
Note: MattNear. Fluff! Fluffy fluffy fluff fluff fluff. It's amazingly adorable, innocent maybe. But still, FLUFF! GAH I'M CRYING BLOOD IN HAPPINESS. And the first fic I commented on eljay xD Note: girl!NearMatt. LOL it's a bit of humor in here. Girl!Near just seemed so real to me, and Matt could be such an asshole if he wants. And a bit of future threesome mentioned.. Not really confirmed though.
Note: girl!MattNear. Another laughable story. 'Tis is nice fluff. Really. It is.
Note: MelloNear. Set during the Wammy days. It's so nice, it warms me up. NOT THAT KIND YOU PERV. More like a warm feeling, making me go awwwwww all day and smile like an idiot. Note: MelloNear. 'Every boy, he said, has a little sweetheart.' That quote was from Joyce's 'The Encounter'. And that quote, and spring too, will always remind me of this story. I remembered painting a tree, I want it gold and yellow, shining in all its glory. Somehow it reminds me of innocence, childhood innocence that was written like a poem in this story. Note: MelloNear. It's a translation from Italian to English by Jenwryn. The story's really good though. It's beautiful. Note: MattNear with Matt and Mello as friends. In some kind of AU where our favorite Ms survive. It's hilarious, really. Started out from YouTube, where Matt pretended he's a scuba man. The whole thing is great, really.
Note: The first Bleach fic in this entry.I'm not gonna say anything about the pairing, just know that it's not RenRuki or IchiRuki, nor it's yaoi. Just read it ;D
Note: MattNear. THE BEST LEMON I'VE EVER READ. SERIOUSLY. HOW CAN I FORGET THIS BABY? If you want to read the story + commentaries from the author, go here. It really gives you a more insight view on their relationship.
Note: MelloNear. Beautiful, with the beaches and how Near's feelings for Mello slowly unravels throughout the fic. Matt's silly interactions in the background also put a smile on my face every time I read this. I think I've ranted about the story before in one of my posts..
Note: MattNear. *sigh* Just read.
Note: Hints of MattNear and one sided MattMello. A three-shot. I like the ending of the first part, where Matt whispers something to Near... Note: MattNear. Probably one of the earliest fics of this pairing that I've read. The inspiration for my poem :3
Note: MattNear. Set in roughly the same universe as 'The Sound of Silence'. It's very, um, arousing. No, just kidding. But it's funny to read Near getting ticked off by Matt during intercourse. Note: MattNear. In the end everything falls into place and it leads to this. You know that since the beginning there's always a possibility of them being together just as a replacement for Mello, but in this fic they didn't take it that way. They thought of each other as a different being than the blond, and that's why their memories of the other lingers.
Note: GevanniNear. I adore this story, the whole thing. Gevanni was just, argh, I can't explain it with words. Overall, it's fluffy goodness <3
Note: MattNear. LOL phailed phonesex.
Note: MattNear. Read in the comments that the author decided Mello was dead by that point, so they grieved for him between their joys.
Note: Hinted MattMello, although for me it's FRIENDSHIP. It's a painful reminder of what could be their last moment together, and what's going to happen next. Honestly, this one is <3
Note: MelloNear. Sad, sad story.
Note: MattNear. Yep, one of the earliest I read of this pairing.
Note: Can actually be any pairing you want. Though I'd really love it to be MattNear. And to be honest, this story actually fits me, in someway, though I'm not gonna tell much about it...
Note: MattNear. It's a sweet moment captured, and the unspoken emptiness grew louder between them. Beautiful.
Note: MelloNear. A beautiful piece that actually made me cry. Here's a quote from the story:
For the cold winter nights, all he needs is Mello.
He shines like the sun.
Maybe he's not that tender.
A little harsher...
But he definitely makes him feel warm.
Maybe he burns like fire.
And makes him feel his own existence.
And he burns in his cold winter...
Near likes it that way.
And for that, he would let Mello burn his world... and him.
And now, this shall ends our meeting. Adieu!
.:I promise you anything for another shot at life:.
Labels: bleach, death note, matt/near, mello/near, story
Sunday, April 11, 2010
5:50 PM
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Story Update!
Tch yeah. Updated Drabble-O-Rama.
Here ya go:
Pairing: Shore/A Summary: Embarrassing. One word to describe what happened last night at Matt's house.
Summary: Shore: How it all began.
Summary: A day at the beach for the three children.
Pairing: MattNear Summary: And you still won't hear me..
Summary: In some strange, twisted way: I love to be annoyed by you.
Pairing: Harry/Hermione (Yes, a HP fic!) Summary: Because loving someone who'd never love you back is pointless. Pairing: MattNear, one Matt/girl!Near Summary: Three moments from the odd couple you all know and love.
Pairing: MattNear Summary: That night, instead of the usual emptiness he felt, he feels safe. Labels: site, story
Saturday, March 6, 2010
8:05 PM
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This is Only A Game
Louder, louder And we'll run for our lives
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DAY THREE (I almost wished you'd come back to me)
Seriously. This story, reduced my happy joys to tears.
IDK what to say, except the reality sucks sometimes and right now I hate Oba and Obata sensei for killing Mello and give DN a slightly sad ending. This passage:
You gaze down at his sleeping face, and there, you can see all that the two of you are (together)—all that you have been and all that you could (but will never) be, and that makes something tighten painfully inside of you, makes it hard to breathe for a second.
..is so much love. Seriously it's beautiful. And the story itself was meant to be hopeful, but sad at the same time. Y'know, it's supposed to show some more human side of M and N, and how they were so fucking obsessed with this game (catching Kira, only to avenge their idol) that they placed it on top priority above everything else (and it ruined everything. everything they could be. everything they've been.)
Please. Just leave me alone crying tears of sorrow and happiness. Labels: angst, awwness, death note, MELLO-CHAN, mello/near, NIA-TAN, story
Saturday, February 20, 2010
5:24 PM
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Tch. Yeah right.
I'm in love with a girl I hate She enjoys pointing out every bad thing about me
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Yeah! Update!
From now on I'll sneak in updates, but it'll be on Saturdays or Sundays.
So what's the news?
My current scores:
Geography: 90 Biology: 94 Physics: 94 History: 80 Indonesian: 95 Math: 72 Economy: 90 (if I'm not wrong, I kinda forgot the score..) English: 100 ICT: 90
... yeah I fail at Math.
Dunno, maybe because this GODDAMNED PESIRAH QUIZ IS FUCKING WITH MY MIND.
Seriously. I hate this shit. AND THE FUCKING QUIZ WILL BE HELD NEXT WEEK.
OH FUCKER.
GODDAMNED MOTHERFUCKING SHIT.
I TOTALLY HATE THIS.
*rants like Mero-chan does*
Ookay, I'm fine now. In other news:
I AM TOTALLY IN LOVE- (because there's no other word perfect to describe this)
-WITH SHEILA-NEECHAN'S STORIES.
IDK they're just.. pretty. And she likes my drabble! *rolls around in bed happily*
I want to be a great writer like her. She's so amazing. The words, it's just, perfect. I really got into the story, and feel the emotions and the feel of the story. LOL I can't even write to save my fucking ass.
I read so many fluffs today I could die T.T
But it's a good thing I'm still alive and doing well.
Tch, yeah. I'm having girly problems since yesterday (you know what I'm talking 'bout). So don't pretend you're surprised with my sup-po-sed bad-ass attitude.
Labels: life, rant, school, story
Friday, February 19, 2010
8:25 PM
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If We Were One
If we were one, my hair would bear colour, my legs would be longer and my hands would be faster.
If we were one, tanned on pale and red on pink and golden on silver; black and white would melt into fire.
If we were one, I'd love to run in the sun, and you'd see the allure of dices.
If we were one, we'd be a perfect being, invincible and irreverent and self-sufficient.
If we were one, I'd lose my boundaries and we'd lose our limits, and my skin wouldn't mean anything anymore.
But since we can't be one, at least, make me feel your presence, force your existence into mine, grab my chin, part my lips, and fill every inch of me.
And now that you can't do it anymore, and my other half is lost, my body has become numb, and will be waiting, and will be mourning with every breath.
But no one will ever know it.
I love the whole thing. How it begins so tantalizingly curious on how would they be if they were one (perfect), to how Near knows it's impossible since they never could, and perhaps meant to be but never meant to be, and he wishes Mello to make him feel his presence, by every step he take, every breath he take, every words he speak. To feel, force his existence to his own, make Near feel every inch of Mello, alive and well, and they are one.
But then Mello's gone and Near's just a half of something that could've been so perfect. And he waits, in mourning, but no one would know because he's Near.
Near. You fascinates me so. Labels: angst, awwness, mello/near, NIA-TAN, story
Monday, February 8, 2010
8:24 PM
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MN Fluff :D
Yes it's true, I romanticize every single thing I do, Especially when it comes to you
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FLUFF! FLUFF! FLUFF!
Gonna post some stories I just read. The links I mean. The pretty little links, pretty pretty pretty.. Pairing: Mello/Near Rating: PG Note(s): Fluff. AU-ish, but still pure awwness.
Pairing: Mello/Near Rating: PG Note(s): Wammy Era. IDK it's fun, with blocks and forts and boiling oils :D
Pairing: Mello/Near Rating: PG-13 Note(s): It gave reasons on why Near hates L. And I like the fact he stayed awake just to see Mello.
Pairing: MN Rating: G Note(s): It's just, IDK. Compared to others they're far more different than those children.
Okay, it's still a few. But that is why I love MN fluff. They just get to me like that~
I'm waiting for sis to draw Matt/girl!Near. IDK I just really want to see how it looks like.
I mean, I saw pics of Mello/girl!Near. Even my banner is using one of those pics. And Mello always looks like he's claimed Near as his own, that stupid bastard.
And I guess if it's with Matt, probably Near would get embarrassed so much, because Matt is such a fucking sap. Though he'd probably fulfill my dreams as a hopeless romantic.
And I just read a MN raep fic, they're both forced to do it and I can't help but cringe a little because Rod Ross is such a bitch and tear up a little when the part with Roger calling them "my children!" and Matt telling Near everything will be okay. It's just, ...
Rating = A++++++
Oh, now I'm reading a pretty pretty story.
So Near bought a beach house for himself. Mello's away at Japan. And they both can only left voicemails because Near hardly wakes up when his phone rings.
Beautiful, because it mentions the sea and how Near knows Mello's going to love the view.
I like the sea. It's calm, and soothing. And when the sun sets to the horizon and the sky turns light blue to blue-gold to orange-and-pink-and-purple, and finally, a deeper blue, it's one of the things I'd like to spend my time with. I could never appreciate those little things like I do now.
Did I mention Matt in the background? He's being silly, teasing those two like a goof. Hell, he sang that silly rhyme for them! He's such an idiot.
..yeah. Ending this post now. Labels: awwness, mello/near, story
Friday, February 5, 2010
9:22 PM
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Rain Rain Rain
And this fic is very bittersweet. Honestly, I like it because it writes off their relationship in some kind of a, timed situation. You do realize they don't have much time, don't you?
WARNING: NC-17 AKA MATURE.Labels: mello/near, NC-17, story
Tuesday, February 2, 2010
4:57 PM
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How About a Phonecall Now?
Say something, finally we're alone All right, is there anyone out there at all?
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Goood afternoon guys!
I'm being hyper right now, thanks to my daily sugar fix (aka FLUFF)
Okay, this one is not fluffy or anything, but it's soo cute! I could die :O
Chibi!Near is pure awwness xD Even Matt and Mello agrees.
And today we wrapped up the SBI tests. IDK how I did, but I hope the results would be good.
And yesterday, it's Mattie's birthday. YES MAIL JEEVAS, I DID NOT FORGET YOU.
So how about we post some Matt love?
Okay, maybe just one. Because I really lack pictures in the Matt department and I don't want to run out of pics in case I have another picspam -_-
Oh hey, like the banner? It's girl!Near aka Nia and Mello. IDK the pics fine. But I kinda hate it.
I'm working on a banner for M's blog. But I can't find the perfect pic for it.
Now I have a lot of things on my to-do list: 1. GET OVER MY OBSESSION WITH NEAR. 2. Go banner crazy and make banners :D 3. Steal Get new earphones. 4. Learn to make some icons 5. Write more Shore/A stories (so I could get more MattNear love <3) 6. Pretend I don't know anyone named WILLIAM in EF. 7. For number 6, even if it kills me. 8. Go find more doujins! 9. Rant about why Matt/Mello sucks ass. 10. CAPSLOCK_DN!!!!
Yeah, I'm a busy person. I'm a future businessman, and this is a test! Labels: awwness, MATT, pic, random, school, story
3:28 PM
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Burn Baby Burn
Feelings that I can't disguise
And never will be reconciled
Oh something inside has died
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Today was fine. Yesterday I drew Niizuma Eiji! Y'know, from Bakuman. 'Cause he's awesome and I like awesome guys. I won't say no to pretty ones too.
And yesterday, I found some site called 'Husky' or something. It's right here.
Near's a girl. But somewhat slutty I guess. And Mello is wayy to seme! I don't really like man!Mello. I like the girly one :D
 Oh and I downloaded some MN fanmix yesterday too. See? Matt/Near doesn't have any fanmix of any sort :(
It's called 'Pretence, Glances, and Messed Up Chances'.
The cover's pretty, don't you think? I think the art's from Ai Love Love. Because she (?) draws Mello in that easily distinguished way.
The eyes. Look at the eyes first. Then the shape of the face, and the nose, and mouth. Lastly, the hair. Yes, people draws Mello hair differently too.
But Near... Many would draw him pantless (YES PANT-LESS) with his pj tops only. I think it's kinda funny. He truly looks like a kid that way xD
Do you know what I want to do right now? Practice guitar. Maybe some 'Bizarre Love Triangle' or 'Chasing Cars'? Just for future preparation :D
Oh and about that multi chaptered story I did for EF, I did a re-design of the outline, and instead of Natalie killing herself out of insanity - everything was just a dream.
The first part's the same. It begins when Matt found Mihael's body. Then he called Natalie. She fainted.
After the funeral, she saw Mihael. He swore he's gonna make her go through the same things he did. Unfortunately, things were made difficult for him because of Matt.
Four days after Nate and Matt went out, Matt dies in his sleep. Seeing the troubled look on his face Nate concludes Mihael killed him.
Then they got into a fight. Mihael explained why he committed suicide. It's because Nate exclaimed she truly hates Mihael. She said the rivalry came first. He shot back by saying the rivalry was because of them. So yeah, they both realized their lives actually revolved around each other.
Mihael apologized, and said he'd wait for her on the other side - the afterlife. When he reached out his hand to hold Nate's, she wakes up.
Apparently she was still unconscious when she fainted in Mihael's room. Matt was there, but he fell asleep. She wakes him up and glad it was all a dream.
After Matt left, and told her to get ready for the funeral, she still feels something was watching her. From afar of course.
Yeah. Long story short. IDK I think it's pretty exciting. Just as exciting as I got this pic:
Yes. That's M falling asleep in class :DDDD
Labels: death note, fanmix, MELLO-CHAN, mello/near, NIA-TAN, random, site, story
Thursday, January 21, 2010
5:45 PM
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I Can't Keep This Up
Can't keep this up
Can't keep from drowning
Won't you hear my voice?
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Yes. From now on, I'll wrote small stuff like that. Like it?
My muse is back bitches! Wrote a one-shot about Shore/A. Fluff. Pure fluff. The title's 'And We'll Sing it Back to You'. Okay I lied. Some H/C in the beginning. Read it at my fic blog dudes. It's not gonna get posted here.
In other news, I managed to swim without drowning this afternoon. Yes. I did.
I can barely breathe though, can't lift my neck higher to open my mouth. And every time I did water got in -_-
This is why I hate swimming. Useless.
Oh, and I read a B/Near fic. It's well written, I had to admit. And the song lyrics (LOVE STORY, DUDES!) kinda fits the story in some sick, twisted way. I mean, this is Beyond Birthday we're talking about!
It has some Near/Linda innit too. Y'know, some SCENES. She kept crying because Near doesn't like her like she loved him. Naww, poor girl. I don't mean that last part, I swear.
Right now I'm downloading Civil Wars from Marvel comics. Yeah, the storyline's used for Ultimate Alliance II, so that's why I'm downloading it rather than other series. The file's fucking huge, 190MB/part! And there's nine of 'em. Jeevas Christ!
I'd love to take a look at the others, but it's so many. I wanna read some Daredevil action for once. HAHA MATT.
Other stuff to do is: FILTER PICTURES!
Yes, I got so many YAOI shounen-ai pics in my comp I gotta separate the racy ones to the tamer ones. I mean, who'd guess Near could be such a manipulating bitch? And the victim was Mello? NEAR/MELLO FTFW!
So yeah, I had to admit people like to draw Near like a hot, pantless, girly bastard. I'd rather have Mello for that one thank you very much. Because I just love seme!Near *giddy*
Y'know that I love the DN fandom so much that I'm willing to accept unusual pairings there. Not like Digimon though. I loath Taichi/Yamato with a passion. But Jenrya/Takato could actually be fluffy. Still, Henrika = LOVE.
... I wanna write Bakuman inspired fics.
I have NO IDEA on what to write now. So probably I'll leave you with this:
Yeah. Near and his duckies <3
Labels: bakuman, death note, marvel, mello/near, NIA-TAN, pairings, pic, random, rant, story
Friday, January 15, 2010
10:40 PM
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A Normal Rambling
Everyone needs a dose of it, right?
So recently, I've noticed my attitude has gone from uncaring and passive to extremely aggressive.
Dunno why, don't care. What sucks is this happened the same time as my writers block. AND I HATE WRITERS BLOCK, DAMN YOU!
But hey, I wrote the first chapter to my AU DN story. And I got two brand new ideas for the FLS2N preparation. AND I also got an idea for a one-shot about Shore and A.
First, let's see my first multi chaptered story, shall we?
Title: Meet Me On Thames Street
Fandom: Death Note
Pairings: Matt/girl!Near
Genre: General, Friendship, light Romance
Summary: (still haven't figured it out yet)
THE PLOT BUNNY:
Mail Jeevas, as a student at Wammy High. Friends with Natalie River, whose rival, Mihael Keehl is driving her nuts. IDK maybe add in some Six Feet Under the Stars scene in the middle? More like friend, falling for another friend. Yes, thanks to Mello. (Although Mello's an evilll jerk here. No. JK.)
And... other plot bunnies!
SHORE/A
Title: call it, "Singing in the rain" for now.
Genre: Fluff
Story: Shore. A. Laughing and singing in the rain. Fluff. Yes.
BAKUMAN LIKE THINGY
Title: call it "bakuman like thingy" for now.
Genre:Friendship.
Story: A teenager who aspires to be a novelist, and a young actress in making. AND IT PROBABLY GOES LIKE BAKUMAN, ONLY SHORTER AND IN INDONESIAN.
RELIGION
Title: call it "religion" for now.
Genre: General. Spiritual.
Story: A girl who doesn't believe in God who studies at a religious school. She confines to her friend, on how she wished she was born an atheist and that in the end there's nothing but Nothingness. Views on Heaven and Hell. She decides to learn deeper about the religion, to satisfy boredom. In the end she dies while saying prayers as her last words.
So it's not so bad, is it? Many plot bunnies popping up in my head.
Got a few actually, written on my notebook.
There's one called "Our Song" and it's about Matt asking Near what'll their song be.
And another called 'Paint Me Red and White'. Title says all. Matt, Near, and painting.
And a 'Last Night' inspired one! Made up of original characters though. It's finished already.
Imma post them later when I get home, right now doing this in front of sis' laptop. At The Store -_- Labels: matt/near, rant, story
Thursday, January 14, 2010
8:59 PM
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LOL PWP
So yeah, Near was a bit weird, Mello thought as he petted his back absentmindedly.
Okay, Near was very strange - he was a kid walking around with a stuffed raccoon.
And he ignored people when they turned him on.
And he made puzzles up-side-down and set up domino-mosaics
Mello still loved him - though he did try to glare the stupid raccoon to death, before he too, fell asleep.
From "Blow my Mind" at FFN.net. Hehe, PWP guys. A bit of humor in there. Where Matt goes all ' MELLO KEEP THAT MUSIC DOWN GODDAMMIT YOU'RE RUINING MY MARIO VIBE' and ' YOU'RE SHAGGING NEAR? BECAUSE THAT THING AND THAT THING... *blahblahblah*'
IDK why I posted this one, I read many 'not suitable for children' one shots and stories before, but probably because the silly fluff part in this one. I mean, COME ON. One has to have a quick fix of fluffiness every day.
Don't ask on how I get so cheery after crying so much reading 'The Sicilian'. I just do. Labels: death note, MELLO-CHAN, mello/near, NIA-TAN, story
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
9:12 PM
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The Epilogue of 'Artificial'
Because I'm in deep shit with this story and can't get it out of my head xD
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Twenty: Road’s End
Greetings: This is N.
Usually, for every tale, there is a moral. There should be something to be learned; a point made out of the time consuming task of creating a story to bore others with.
However, usually, people are also idiots, and tell a story simply to take up precious time; most likely, this is one of those stories.
Yes…people are idiots.
Throughout the entire span of my life, I’ve been surrounded by nothing but idiots. Idiots are the people who work for me; idiots are the people who raised me in Wammy’s; idiots are the parents who never bothered to get to know me in the first place.
However, most of all, idiots are people who let themselves fall in love.
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“Near!” Far called, sauntering into the room while her long, silver locks bounced in sync with each step she took. She grinned as she held up a file in her hands, flipping it open.
“There’s a new case!” she said excitedly, handing him the file while she read over his shoulder. Near sighed, flipping it shut while rolling his eyes. “It’s simple. Any average moron of a policeman could solve this if they used a few brain cells. Hand it over to the Japanese Task Force.”
“Aww, Near. Ever since Kira was defeated, nothing keeps you interested anymore, huh?” she complained, tossing the file on a nearby table and plopping down dramatically on the floor.
Far’s eyes wandered up to Near; shining orbs full of curiosity. “Near…Do you think Kira was the last good criminal? I mean, ever since he was defeated, no one could even compare, to the point you rarely take cases anymore.”
“Far, I wouldn’t really call him the last ‘good criminal.’ In fact, I disagree that calling Kira a ‘criminal’ is a fitting title; it’s insulting.”
“Are you saying that what Kira was doing, killing all those people, was okay?”
“On the contrary; I don’t condemn what he did entirely and without question, but I also don’t agree with it. It can’t be denied that after Kira came into the picture, crime went down, and the world was ‘safer’….but it was not any gentler. A world that lives in fear of death is a world that is cruel and unusual.”
“So….you’re indifferent?”
“It’s all matter of what is considered ‘good’ and ‘evil’; meaning, it’s a matter of opinion.”
Far opened her mouth to speak, but it was the voice of Raven that sounded in the room. “Well, in my opinion, Kira’s nothing but a bigot who can burn in hell,” she said, bitterness hinting in her tone. “However, we should probably go back to the fact that Near’s one big, fat killjoy.”
“I am not. Do not blame me; blame criminals for not being creative enough.”
We’ll do it all
Everything
On our own…
“It’s been nine years since the crazy bastard kicked the bucket. Focus on the now, you numbskulls,” Raven scoffed, playfully rustling Far’s hair. “And right now, Near’s taking the entertainment equivalent of all his toys plus a sex doll put in one for granted.”
Far narrowed her eyes and scrunched up her nose, turning to look over her shoulder at Raven. “I certainly hope you’re not referring to me, because if you were, I’d turn you into the equivalent of a pile of dust.”
Raven bit her lip nervously, her eyes flickering to her left in desperation. “Um…of course not! I was obviously referring to….um….Gevanni!”
At the sound of his name being called, Gevanni perked his head up from amongst a pile of his things, confused and out-of-loop. Far and Raven burst into laughter, eyes brimming with tears as they gasped for breath.
We don’t need
Anything
Or anyone…
As Raven clutched her side from laughter, she peeked down to see Far collapsed from her former sitting position, laying on the floor in a giggling fit. With mischief in mind, Raven lunged out and pulled Near by the collar of his shirt, making him gasp in surprise as he tumbled to the floor on top of Far.
Putting her hands on her hips in triumphantly, Raven sashayed out of the room, directing Gevanni and any remaining SPK members in the vicinity to do the same. Within minutes, Near and Far were alone, as close as they could possibly get in the literal sense.
Far’s lips trembled, but pulled upwards into a smirk. “W-Well, hello there, stranger…”
“Yes…hi….”
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me,
And just forget the world?
Far gently pushed back on Near’s shoulders, making him roll off her and onto the floor. She sighed, staring upward at the ceiling as she brushed her bangs out of her eyes.
“Raven’s great, but she should know by now I don’t need people helping me with things like this. I can handle myself,” she murmured. Near lay on his back, also staring aimlessly up at the ceiling. He lolled his head to the side, staring at Far with half-lid eyes. He parted his lips, but couldn’t find the voice to speak.
I don’t quite know
How to say
How I feel…
Far jerked as she felt a tug, and peered next to her to see Near twirling a strand of her hair. Pale gray irises flickered to her face every now and then nervously as his hand moved from her hair to her face. He gently brushed against the skin of her cheek, lightly enough that it sent waves of electricity through her. Far’s cheeks went from pink to bright red in a matter of seconds. She tentatively grasped his free hand in hers, the feeling of warmth contagious between them.
Those three words
Are said too much
They’re not enough…
“F-Far……Farrah Maidens,” Near whispered, his eyes fluttering closed as he leaned forward in the same trancelike state he’d become accustomed to. His lips pressed against hers shyly; earning a small squeak of surprise from Far. Taking this as an opportunity, Near deepened the kiss, leaving Far surprised but utterly satisfied with the change in bravery.
Near pulled back, his breathing shallow and quickened. “I….love you,” he said quietly against her lips. Over time, he’d grown more used to saying this; a lesson Far had taught him that was etched into his heart. Far smiled, laughing to herself in bliss as her eyes remained closed.
“I love you, Nate River. Always have, always will, and I’m more than happy the feeling is mutual. Let’s keep it that way…”
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me,
And just forget the world?
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Love.
You fall into it as though it was a bottomless pit, and once in, you can’t immediately get out. To the person you feel this for, your heart, soul, and most likely control over your free will is given. They can treasure it, or they can absolutely crush it into a million pieces, where it will not matter if you pick them up as you try to move on; the memory remains.
To fall in love is a journey in which most give up along the way. To make it to the end, you must endure pain, uncertainty, fear, lust; an entire arsenal of harmful emotions Love uses as weapons against the sensitive Heart. As human beings, we still endure this seemingly torturous journey; all of this for the silly thing called Love, which was only out to get us in the first place. Love is vicious, taking no mercy on its victims.
‘Above all, idiots are the people who let themselves fall in love.’
………However, I cannot help but be intrigued….
What would that make me?
This is Near,
Signing off.Labels: awwness, story
Sunday, January 3, 2010
9:48 PM
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I Think I'm In Love...
With this story!
Haha, got you back then, didn't I?
It's Near/OC. Her name's Far. Yeah, totally predictable. And she looks like girl!Near. But she's not the Mary Sue type; she's more like the girls in romance movies that make you cry. Think Penelope.
But the story got me all warm and mushy inside, oh such fluff that I can't resist ^o^
The last chapter featured a POV from Near, about his life until the end of the Kira case. Lemme give you a preview, 'cause it's just so, IDK maybe honest? It makes me wanna go awwwww for the cuteness and cry. And probably die. Later.
Greetings: This is N.
Usually, for every tale, there is a moral. There should be something to be learned; a point made out of the time consuming task of creating a story to bore others with.
However, usually, people are also idiots, and tell a story simply to take up precious time; most likely, this is one of those stories.
Yes…people are idiots.
Throughout the entire span of my life, I’ve been surrounded by nothing but idiots. Idiots are the people who work for me; idiots are the people who raised me in Wammy’s; idiots are the parents who never bothered to get to know me in the first place.
However, most of all, idiots are people who let themselves fall in love.
Love.
You fall into it as though it was a bottomless pit, and once in, you can’t immediately get out. To the person you feel this for, your heart, soul, and most likely control over your free will is given. They can treasure it, or they can absolutely crush it into a million pieces, where it will not matter if you pick them up as you try to move on; the memory remains.
To fall in love is a journey in which most give up along the way. To make it to the end, you must endure pain, uncertainty, fear, lust; an entire arsenal of harmful emotions Love uses as weapons against the sensitive Heart. As human beings, we still endure this seemingly torturous journey; all of this for the silly thing called Love, which was only out to get us in the first place. Love is vicious, taking no mercy on its victims.
‘Above all, idiots are the people who let themselves fall in love.’
………However, I cannot help but be intrigued….
What would that make me?
This is Near,
Signing off.
And the last chapter uses the song 'Chasing Cars'! And it totally fits! Aww!
Right now I'm grinning madly while throwing my arms occasionally and hugging myself. Come on guys, say it with me: AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm high already. Tell Tony fucking Montana he's a good for nothing drug king; who needs coke when you have 24 hours full of fluffy, angsty, pretty stories?
Heh, I'm pretty sure my friends would think I'm overreacting over this one. Hell, maybe all of them don't like fluff! They like drama, or ANGST. Yeah, 'cause my classmates are EMO KIDS or SCENE WANNABEES. And I'm probably the only one who's being normal.
... okay, maybe I want to be a club kid. But I'd be one when I'm twenty, goddammit! Labels: awwness, death note, rant, story
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