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Just leave me your stardust
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turn down the light
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come on skinny love
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It's almost like loving
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All the time, darling now all the time
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i'm taking a chance, letting you inside
i'm feeling alive all over again
as deep as the sky, under my skin
like being in love, she says, for the first time
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Remind me to mark this post:
FANDOM - PAIRING LIST
Digimon 01/02
Digimon Tamers
Death Note
Bleach
Kuroshitsuji
Bakuman
Nabari no Ou
Fullmetal Alchemist
Katekyo Hitman Reborn
...
all/Tsuna? (except Basil and Enma and the girls orz)
Ookiku Furikabutte
Vongola GP Kuru! it's KHR i know
Harry Potter
Criminal Minds
Bones
NCIS
Community
The Social Network
Marvel Universe
Actors RPF
- Andrew Garfield/Jesse Eisenberg
- Andrew Garfield/Rooney Mara
- Jesse Eisenberg/Joe Mazzello
- Jesse Eisenberg/Rooney Mara
- Jesse Eisenberg/Emma Stone
- Joe Gordon-Levitt/Ellen Page
- Tom Hardy/Joe Gordon-Levitt
- Tyler Hoechlin/Dylan O'Brien
- Shemar Moore/Matthew Gray Gubler
American Idol RPF (+ Anthemics!)
- David Cook/David Archuleta
- Phillip Phillips/Jessica Sanchez
- Neal Tiemann/David Archuleta
- Scotty McCreery/Lauren Alaina
- Michael Johns/Carly Smithson
Teen Wolf
- Stiles Stilinski/Lydia Martin
- Scott McCall/Allison Argent
- Scott McCall/Stiles Stilinski
- Derek Hale/Stiles Stilinski
- Isaac Lahey/Stiles Stilinski
- Stiles Stilinski/Allison Argent
- Lydia Martin/Allison Argent/Stiles Stilinski (team human!)
- and so many more.................
/list will be updated as soon as I get a new fandom love/
Labels: actors rpf, american idol rpf, bakuman, bleach, bones, community, criminal minds, death note, digimon, harry potter, khr, kuroshitsuji, marvel, ncis, oofuri, pairings, skyfall, the social network, tw, vongola gp
Saturday, January 8, 2011
10:01 PM
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This is side one
A rivalry goes so deep Between me and this lack of sleep over you
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TOMORROW: First day of school. Yay. Woot woot.
Can you sense sarcasm dripping out of my pores?
Honestly, I hate going to school tomorrow if it's just for three, four hours. I mean, seriously? We can all pray together some other time.
It's a good thing I'm unavailable tomorrow~~~
*cue creepy theme song*
And hey, do you know that Nabari no Ou is going to end in the next three/four chapters?! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
NO MORE RAIKOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOUUUUUUUUUUUUU
NO MORE shotacon YUKIMI AND/OR PEDOBARIIIIII
NO MORE MIHARU-KUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUNNN!!!!
And what's worse is that Yoite still hasn't made an appearance yet! This is, insulting; to say the least >.<
I want to see Yoite.. To know how's he doing after Miharu granted his wish. I'm pretty sure he's not really erased, Miharu accidentally slipped in some of his feelings and wishes into Yoite's wish. So I really, really hope there will be some sort of epilogue or something that shows Miharu and Yoite Sora Kodou meeting; if there's not enough time to finish the story.
I hope Kamatani-sensei doesn't rush the ending... Or I will be a sad fangirl T.T
Besides, who wants to repeat the whole DN charade? As brilliant as it was, introducing characters like Nia-tan (<3) and Mero-chan, it's still not as enjoyable as the first arc.. I really miss the whole Light goes batshit crazy during his initial confrontation with L. XDD
AND OH YEAH, I'M LIKING KHR RIGHT NOW. NO, SERIOUSLY.
BUT FOREVER, I SHALL STILL FAP OVER NEAR - because he's just, adorable! *squee*
It's 16 days away from my birthday, and do you know what I want?
1. Some doujinshi - right now preferrably 1827 or 5927 or MN (or M2N.. *is shot*) 2. All volumes of Bakuman that's already released 3. Maybe a DVD bundle of Nabari no Ou? *crosses finger* 4. Some fanart.. Maybe 1827? or YukimiRaikou? X3 5. ...fanmixes?
AND I'M CURRENTLY WORKING ON A RAIKOU/??? FST. YEAH BABY, BRING ON THE FABULOUSHNESSH OF RAIKOU-SAMA.
I've already made the cover for a Raikou/Raimei one.. but still haven't made a list of songs for them.
On the other hand, I've been listening to some songs for a Yukimi/Raikou FST. And put some songs to make a mini (for now) playlist for Miharu/Yoite. Really, it's hard to find a song about Raikou and Raimei.
AND I'VE DL-ED A LOT OF FSTS! And listening to them! And fapping over the effing gorgeous covers! WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!
*falls from chair* Labels: death note, faaaabulous raikou, fandom, fanmix, khr, life, miharu-kuuun, school, yoite
Friday, July 9, 2010
10:26 PM
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Fic Recommendations PART I
Because neither of them want to say goodbye, and that's how Matt wants to remember Near.
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Now I shall give you links to my all time favorite stories! Whoo!!! BTW that was a quote from a story...
Note: MattNear. You could practically hear Matt's heart breaking throughout the whole fic. Beautiful. Really, I kid you not. BTW it's hardcore yaoi guys. I'm more interested in the feeling of it though :D
Note: MelloNear. FLUFF! Fluffy fluffy fluff. Excuse the chocolate easter egg there, it doesn't really matter.
Note: MattNear. Fluff! Fluffy fluffy fluff fluff fluff. It's amazingly adorable, innocent maybe. But still, FLUFF! GAH I'M CRYING BLOOD IN HAPPINESS. And the first fic I commented on eljay xD Note: girl!NearMatt. LOL it's a bit of humor in here. Girl!Near just seemed so real to me, and Matt could be such an asshole if he wants. And a bit of future threesome mentioned.. Not really confirmed though.
Note: girl!MattNear. Another laughable story. 'Tis is nice fluff. Really. It is.
Note: MelloNear. Set during the Wammy days. It's so nice, it warms me up. NOT THAT KIND YOU PERV. More like a warm feeling, making me go awwwwww all day and smile like an idiot. Note: MelloNear. 'Every boy, he said, has a little sweetheart.' That quote was from Joyce's 'The Encounter'. And that quote, and spring too, will always remind me of this story. I remembered painting a tree, I want it gold and yellow, shining in all its glory. Somehow it reminds me of innocence, childhood innocence that was written like a poem in this story. Note: MelloNear. It's a translation from Italian to English by Jenwryn. The story's really good though. It's beautiful. Note: MattNear with Matt and Mello as friends. In some kind of AU where our favorite Ms survive. It's hilarious, really. Started out from YouTube, where Matt pretended he's a scuba man. The whole thing is great, really.
Note: The first Bleach fic in this entry.I'm not gonna say anything about the pairing, just know that it's not RenRuki or IchiRuki, nor it's yaoi. Just read it ;D
Note: MattNear. THE BEST LEMON I'VE EVER READ. SERIOUSLY. HOW CAN I FORGET THIS BABY? If you want to read the story + commentaries from the author, go here. It really gives you a more insight view on their relationship.
Note: MelloNear. Beautiful, with the beaches and how Near's feelings for Mello slowly unravels throughout the fic. Matt's silly interactions in the background also put a smile on my face every time I read this. I think I've ranted about the story before in one of my posts..
Note: MattNear. *sigh* Just read.
Note: Hints of MattNear and one sided MattMello. A three-shot. I like the ending of the first part, where Matt whispers something to Near... Note: MattNear. Probably one of the earliest fics of this pairing that I've read. The inspiration for my poem :3
Note: MattNear. Set in roughly the same universe as 'The Sound of Silence'. It's very, um, arousing. No, just kidding. But it's funny to read Near getting ticked off by Matt during intercourse. Note: MattNear. In the end everything falls into place and it leads to this. You know that since the beginning there's always a possibility of them being together just as a replacement for Mello, but in this fic they didn't take it that way. They thought of each other as a different being than the blond, and that's why their memories of the other lingers.
Note: GevanniNear. I adore this story, the whole thing. Gevanni was just, argh, I can't explain it with words. Overall, it's fluffy goodness <3
Note: MattNear. LOL phailed phonesex.
Note: MattNear. Read in the comments that the author decided Mello was dead by that point, so they grieved for him between their joys.
Note: Hinted MattMello, although for me it's FRIENDSHIP. It's a painful reminder of what could be their last moment together, and what's going to happen next. Honestly, this one is <3
Note: MelloNear. Sad, sad story.
Note: MattNear. Yep, one of the earliest I read of this pairing.
Note: Can actually be any pairing you want. Though I'd really love it to be MattNear. And to be honest, this story actually fits me, in someway, though I'm not gonna tell much about it...
Note: MattNear. It's a sweet moment captured, and the unspoken emptiness grew louder between them. Beautiful.
Note: MelloNear. A beautiful piece that actually made me cry. Here's a quote from the story:
For the cold winter nights, all he needs is Mello.
He shines like the sun.
Maybe he's not that tender.
A little harsher...
But he definitely makes him feel warm.
Maybe he burns like fire.
And makes him feel his own existence.
And he burns in his cold winter...
Near likes it that way.
And for that, he would let Mello burn his world... and him.
And now, this shall ends our meeting. Adieu!
.:I promise you anything for another shot at life:.
Labels: bleach, death note, matt/near, mello/near, story
Sunday, April 11, 2010
5:50 PM
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Another Sunset
But all I ever wanted was to Dream another sunset with you
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Tch. Yeah. From 'Jamie All Over'. I used that lyric as the main prompt for one of my fic. but it's still written on my notebook.
Recently I began watching Animax more often. And I found some of the animes there very entertaining. IDK maybe like Colourcloud Palace? And Bleach, and Fullmetal Alchemist. It's a shame there's no Hetalia -_-
So yeah. I'm a mess. Why? Because I'm not supposed to obsess over anything, not when there's a major test coming up. Except for Near, because he's like a drug for me.
And.. Bakuman is gonna have an anime! I can't wait to hear how Takagi sounds like, or Mashiro. Or Miho. Or Eijiiiii *hearts*
Suure, he's gonna show up later, but at least sooner than Fukuda or Hiramaru or Aoki.
LOL I think there's a threesome love triangle between Fukuda, Hiramaru, and Aoki.
Mashiro + Miho = FLUFF.
Obviously.
COME ON, I'M GONNA RANT ABOUT PAIRINGS IN BAKUMAN NOW! FUCK. I JUST REALIZE IT.
I dislike Takagi/Miyoshi. For no reason. Maybe because Miyoshi is a stupid girl with big boobs. And Takagi's so, IDK insanely awesome? He should be with Iwase instead. NO; PAIR HIM UP WITH AOKI FOR LULZ.
LOL I haven't talked about yaoi pairings here :D
Ookay, first:
Takagi/Mashiro should be pretty typical in the fandom. I mean, come on; bffs love. It's so, typically expected from the fangirls to draw out conclusions like that.
(BUT MATT/MELLO IS DISGUSTING. I DON'T CARE, BEST FRIENDS OR NOT, IT'S HORRIBLE. HORRIBLE!! THEY SHOULD NOT BE TOGETHER. NEVER. EVER. EWWWWWWWW!!!!!!)
LOL do an Eiji/Mashiro for fun. IDK, I can really see that there's no obvious chemistry between the boys in Bakuman. They're all obviously manly, not girly *coughMERO-CHANcough*. And there's plenty of girls to go around there. Finally, a normal relationship!
Though I think Oba and Obata should proclaim that MN is canon. Because it's obvious: Near cares for Mello and Mello has a strange obsession for Near.
Ooooookaayyy. I'm done here. Short, but what the hell, it's an update!
Labels: anime, bakuman, death note, pairings
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
9:03 PM
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This is Only A Game
Louder, louder And we'll run for our lives
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DAY THREE (I almost wished you'd come back to me)
Seriously. This story, reduced my happy joys to tears.
IDK what to say, except the reality sucks sometimes and right now I hate Oba and Obata sensei for killing Mello and give DN a slightly sad ending. This passage:
You gaze down at his sleeping face, and there, you can see all that the two of you are (together)—all that you have been and all that you could (but will never) be, and that makes something tighten painfully inside of you, makes it hard to breathe for a second.
..is so much love. Seriously it's beautiful. And the story itself was meant to be hopeful, but sad at the same time. Y'know, it's supposed to show some more human side of M and N, and how they were so fucking obsessed with this game (catching Kira, only to avenge their idol) that they placed it on top priority above everything else (and it ruined everything. everything they could be. everything they've been.)
Please. Just leave me alone crying tears of sorrow and happiness. Labels: angst, awwness, death note, MELLO-CHAN, mello/near, NIA-TAN, story
Saturday, February 20, 2010
5:24 PM
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FYI I'm Kneeling On My Knees Now
Time and again boys are raised to be men Patient they start, fearful they end
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Still on Akane's Near RP account.
Read this. It's pure love.
SPOILERS AHOY!
I love the cursed!Mello, he's just so fucking cute like that. And he's proposing to Near like that it's just sooo AWWW!!
It's a shame they cancel the wedding at the last minute. Mello came back to normal. But at least he admitted if he's going to settle down he's going to do it with Near. Labels: death note, kurosaki akane, mello/near
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
9:50 PM
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So Beautiful
So beautiful, beautiful It's a beautiful lie
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..I laughed out loud. Because of Akane and her Near RP account.
I can't help it! It's just too fucking interesting not to read, so yeah I gotta read it xD
And Near was like "..Mello, you're a girl." and "I want to see you cry, Mello." and "Melloooo, Mellooo? Where are you? I wanna play with you if you play with me I'll give you my legos and my friendship~" and "You're fucking MINE."
It's HILARIOUS. I love Near even more <3
.. I hate that emoticon. It reminds me of my dear rainbow muffin. Ironic, seeing as I now use that name as my FFN account.
Oh and I forgot to tell you how much Akane-chan sucks :(
She said Matt/Near is pure CRACK. POINTLESS. SO UN-CANON. SO WHAT???
THEY'RE PURE CRACK AND FLUFF AND SUGARY SWEETNESS AND THAT'S WHY I LIKE THEM! IT'S A BALANCE BETWEEN THE ANGSTY ADULT MELLO/NEAR FICS! COME ON, IF IT WASN'T FOR THOSE FICS I WOULD'VE SUFFERED FROM HYPOTENSION BY NOW OR I WOULD'VE BEEN AN EMO KID. ARRRRRGGGGGGHHHHHH!!!!
Even if it wasn't canon I'd still love them.
Right now I'm texting with M about those RP chats. IDK it cracks me up.
And right now iPod's playing 'Himerus and Eros'. How fitting.
Yes it's true, you brainwashed me and now I'm more confused I still somehow hope I'd end up with you Yes it's true, I romanticize every single thing I do Especially when it comes to you
And the part where it goes..
You know I, I hate you No I hate you more You know I, I love you No I love you more
.. is love.
And a Matt reference!
Screw what my supposed friends think It's obvious they reek of jealousy It's obvious they reek of jealousy And the LoveHate temptation:
I hope to God I mean a little more than the sounds that escape your tired 4 AM lips Oh how I wish I meant a little more than the symphony of heavy breathing and the friction of hips
This part too:
And I fight the urge to explore The vastness of your curse I adore
And this one just says 'Mello likes to mess with Near'
You're captivating while evading all the questions I have for you Like, "What exactly makes you tick?"
And this one is how Mello feels when he's afraid of others judging them
When the guilt sets in tell me what are we going to do
And this one is when he sees that side of Near
Your tongue is wet with top secret passion I hope I am the cause of it I'll navigate this unsturdy vessel through the soft sea of pillows and blankets
And this is for Mello, when he realizes he's in love with Near
I've sunken in the quicksands of love And I don't want you to rescue me
Oh dear, this is the perfect MN song to describe their unspoken passion towards the other.
You do realize I posted all the lyrics of the song there? Yeah, I'm amazing at analysis :D Labels: death note, mello/near, pairings, rant, song
8:18 PM
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HAAAAYYYDEEEEE
Why don't you come right out and say it? Even if the words are probably gonna hurt
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If I used to have a sim named Hayden Foley back in the old days, now I have a new Hayden :DD
Introducing....
Hayden Nathaniel Foley
New York, February 14th 2013 Son of Samuel and Ava Foley (aka Shore and A) Godson of Nate and Linda River (aka Near and Linda) Loves to watch news and write. (is an aspiring journalist to be)
So yeah, if he's in Wammy Near would've considered him in the successor line. Because his IQ was as high as Bill (2nd best at Wammy) and his skills are like Wolly's (Mr. Number One).
His hair's kinda like Matt's. But he's not Matt. Because Matt doesn't have cute puppy dog eyes. And he wants to be like his Uncle Near. His affection towards Near is like Near's towards L. Lawliet.
He loves his parents of course. They give him a laptop on his fourteenth birthday. Near gives him a camera, and Linda gives him a messenger bag.
IDK maybe he's my new obsession. Who knows?
Labels: death note
Tuesday, February 2, 2010
10:03 PM
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The Best at What We Do
We are the best at what we do And these are the words you wish you wrote down This is the way you wish your voice sounds, Handsome and smart
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I don't feel really great today. IDK, this day sucks big time.
First, thank you legs, you have failed me.
Why? Because of you, I can't dance, or walk for that matter. So? I'm fucking tired. And? Oh just go to hell.
And now I'm thinking of a line in some story in where Matt checks out Near's legs. And he was like 'WTH, why am I checking out his legs?'. I think it's from Threshie's 'This is War'. I love that story, it's pure awesomeness. Fluff. Fluff. Fluff.
I read Eila-chan's post about MN haters. In where she fiercely shot back the arguments that stated 'MN suck! LLight rules fuck yea!'.
Honestly, even though the second arc of DN is pretty rushed, it has many things left open for interpretation. Not like the first arc, in where everything was timed. The second one has a huge time gap between them (2004-2009). And there are introduction to characters that we don't really know much about.
Like Mello and Near. We only know that they're opposites, both are L's successors, geniuses, are rivals, and Mello would always come second after Near. But we don't know about their past, do we? Maybe they could be friends, or at least on friendly terms. Maybe they didn't really hate each other. Who knows?
And L/Light is an interesting pairing. But I never feel any pull towards them, because it's just, yeah. Unexplainable.
Also, today I had a fight with T. Great. Whoopee. Lemme just cut the crap:
I HATE THIS DAY.
Period. Labels: death note, pairings, pissed off, random
Friday, January 29, 2010
6:25 PM
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So Again and Again
I'll watch you dance around
To New Found Glory
On the front seat of my car
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Yes. The dancing part is a contribution to Light IMAGAY. 28/1/2010 baby!
Goodbye. And GOOD RIDDANCE. Same goes to you, Mikami-san. It's a good thing that bitch Takada died already, and Misa's gonna kill herself on Valentine's Day next year. Now I'm perfectly happy.
So you're wondering why I confessed my love to all the beings in the world huh?
Weeeelll, a few minutes before I posted that post I read my email. And it's full of reviews from FFN.net users! And also Favorite Story alert ;D
Yes. I'm rolling in giddy at the time. I mean, who could ever expect people like girl!Matt/Near? It's pure love, I'm telling you. Even more so, the original pairing *gushes like a true fangirl*
COME ON, WHERE IS THE LOVE PEOPLE?
Oh and I'm wearing my new pair of jeans today. It's dark blue, and it goes up to my ribs so it kinda hurts. But I love it, not just because it's new, but because it's loose fitting. I like oversized things.
Now I'm reading a story or something. It's MN, but yeah, it's fine with me.
I must have started talking about Near more often, because that day, Matt said something that nearly killed me.
“You have a crush on Near, don’t you, Mells?”
That was the first thing I heard when I walked through Matt’s door. I choked on my chocolate, nearly spitting it out. When I finally calmed down, I was practically yelling. “W-What!? What the fucking hell, Matt! No, I don’t have a God-damned crush on that God-damned albino freak! How the hell could you even think that!?”
“Because it’s painfully obvious.” Matt didn’t seem fazed by my anger.
I glared at him. “How do you figure that?” I snapped.
“All you talk about is Near. Whenever I ask you to play video games with me, your excuse is that ‘Near would be studying, not playing stupid games’. Everything you do is centered on him. Either you have a crush on him, or you’re so obsessed that he’s all you can ever think about.”
I fell silent, my face heating up. “...” Was I really like that? No. Of course not. Because that would mean that I felt something for Near. I composed myself and addressed the redhead once more. “I can say with 100% certainty that I do not have a crush on Near, nor am I obsessed.” My eyes narrowed.
Matt seemed to contemplate all of this. “...Oh, okay. In that case, will you play a game with me?”
I was careful to avoid Near’s name. “I should be studying.”
“Then I’ll help you study.” Matt grins. I was slightly skeptical, but I’d do anything. I nodded, and Matt’s grin grew.
Matt grabbed up an abandoned textbook from the floor and flipped through it. “Tell me if you know it.” The first few were common knowledge before it got into things even I didn’t know. It was no wonder I was still second...
I was completely immersed in this odd study game, answering each automatically. I didn’t notice exactly what that last fact was.
“You have a crush on Near.”
“I know that.”
Matt smirked. My face reddened. “Shut the fuck up, Matt.”
The worst part?
I’ve always known that.
Yeah, a quote from it. Mello's POV guys. IDK I get the sense of nice fluff around here ^o^
And earlier at school M decided to take a look at my doujin collection.
...yes he read Pink Sniper.
...and California.
IT'S A GOOD THING I DON'T HAVE ANYTHING FROM H-EICHI EXCEPT THAT DAMNED MM DOUJIN. OR ELSE I'D BE DOOOOOMMMMMEEEEEEDDDD!!!
It's amazing why I never go to the evil side (AKA Matt/Mello).
And William didn't sit next to me at EF today so I think I got over my silly little crush on him.
Well, IDK for sure. But, uh, STOP TALKING TO ME.
Pretend that I never said anything about liking William, or stopped liking him. Or anything about the dude, mkay? Honestly I never got so OOC like this.
Y'know, I think I should post something about songs that remind me of certain situations or moods.
I KNO! I POST NEW POST! FAKK YEA! *lol I fail at trollspeak*
Labels: death note, l word, life, lol, pairings
Thursday, January 28, 2010
10:28 PM
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GOODBYE AND FAREWELL
The blind lead the blind so why can't I find my way
This could be heaven but I don't know where I am
I am too scared to come out from behind here
My body is aching it feels like it's wearing me
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Dear Mello.
If you're gonna die don't pretend you're not working together with Near. Because you just did.
And I hope you burn in hell for dragging Matt with you. Although I'd pray for you if you were real
Love Sincerely,
D.
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That would be my letter to Mello if he was real. But I know that he's not. And I know he would never see the sun again after today according to the Death Note Universe. He wouldn't get a chance to taste victory in seeing Light Imagay suffer. He wouldn't get a chance to feel how it's like to be L.
Dear, dear Mello: You're an idiot.
^colored by me
^again, colored by me
I love the song lyrics there.
^those two pics are girl!Near/Mello
THAT IS NOT A MM PIC
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Can you tell that I obviously lack - more like don't want to have any - Matt/Mello pictures? Yeah, I rule.
And yes. Goodbye boys. You had a great life.
Mello: Even though I'd prefer calling you pretty, you're still pretty tough. You're still an idiot on my list though; HOW CAN THAT BITCH TAKADA KILL YOU USING HER DEATH NOTE HIDDEN IN HER BRA?
Matt: ILY. No more explanation needed. If only you/Near is canon, I'd love you more. Seriously. You do remind me of Daredevil. Not just because DD's name is Matt Mordock. But because you're The Man Without Fear.
For Takada-sama: FUCK YOU. BURN IN HELL. YOU STUPID CUNT. NO, WHOOOOOOORRRREEEEE. WITH BIG BOOBS. LIGHT WON'T LOVE YOU. NEVER. NEVER!
Labels: death note, MATT, MELLO-CHAN, picspam, random
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
5:21 PM
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Your Last Day
These humans all suck, I'd rather be home feeling violent and lonely
I'm not trying to sound so insincere,
But the postcard that's taped to the freezer reads "Wish you were here"
How I wish I could disappear
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Three days before the showdown.
YES THE FINAL SHOWDOWN.
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Teru Mikami was supposed to go to the bank today. With Gevanni following. It's assumed he goes to the bank around this date. So when he goes to the bank again tomorrow, Gevanni's suspicion arose.
And in my fic, 'Twenty', on this day Matt and Near were supposed to say their goodbyes in SPK HQ.
And around midnight, Mello would write his letter, directed to Near and Shore (one for Matt, but he's not sure if they'd both survive).
Seriously. Tomorrow will be very depressing. For me at least. Nah, IDK. Maybe it'll just be the best day of my life.
I hope I can publish that part of Twenty on my LJ. Come on, everyone needs a dose of Matt/Near love, right? Okay, maybe not. Because I almost post it and I was such a coward I closed the tab -_-
BUT EVERYONE STILL NEEDS A DOSE OF MY OTP!
Besides those MM shippers must be crying because their so-called OTP are going to die tomorrow >:(
I think I should post a picspam. And yes I'm gonna do one, right now. But I'm not gonna post a lot, save it for tomorrow I guess.
Fanmix anyone?
HAPPY THOUGHTS. THINK HAPPY THOUGHTS.
This is oh-so bothersome.
BTW if you want to download that MN fanmix - Pretence, Glances, and Messed Up Chances - you can do so here.
Use the MegaUpload one, because SendSpace is such a bitch.
Seriously, CAN ANY OF YOU BUY ME THOSE DOUJINS BY TIROL? I WAAAAAAAAANNTT THEM.
So.
Fucking.
Much.
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BTW did you hear? Someone broke up *gasps dramatically* at school. And someone *nudgenudge* hooked up :D
Seriously at school there's too much drama. My poor brain can't handle it.
Remind me to never go out with anyone at school. They're such freaks.
Labels: death note, fanmix, MATT, matt/near, MELLO-CHAN, picspam, random, rant
Monday, January 25, 2010
11:33 PM
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Paper Hearts - A MattNear Fanmix
Yes. Fanmix time! I did it! A Matt/Near one of course ;)
DL Link
Sorry for the whole four parts thingy. Box.net won't accept the file if it exceeds 25MB and uploading to Mediafire took me forever :(
PAPER HEARTS - A Matt/Near Fanmix
Track listing:
1. My Paper Heart - All American Rejects
Please just don't play with me, my paper heart will bleed
This wait for destiny won't do, be with me please I'll beseech you
Simple things that make you run away
Catch you if I can
Matt's telling Near to keep his heart safe. Or something like that. You know he hates waiting, or at least my Matt is.
2. W.A.M.S. - Fall Out Boy
Hurry, hurry
You put my head in such a flurry, flurry
What makes you so special?
What makes you so special?
I'm gonna leave you
I'm gonna teach you
How we're all alone
This would be the song that fits Matt when he thinks about Near and was like 'who the hell is he?' and 'why do I care so much about him?' or something like that.
3. Heartbeat - Stereo Skyline
So baby keep my heart beat, beat, beat, beatin'
She's the soul reason I keep believing
That we're gonna die like this you know, oh, oh, oh
They'd listen to this when they're together xD And Matt would just drag Near to dance, even though Near doesn't want to yet they had so much fun...
4. Damned If I Do Ya (Damned If I Don't) - All Time Low
Don't make a fool of myself
When you hang around
When you're gone
I'm a match that's burning out
Could have been, should have done
What I said I was going to do
...Title says all perhaps. Hesitation. Afraid of rejection. In the end, if they had been more brave they could be together.
DO I HAVE TOO MANY SONGS FROM MATT'S POV?
5. Used To - Daughtry
We used to have this figured out
We used to breathe without a doubt
The nights were clearer for the first time that I'd see
We used to have this under control
We never thought we used to know
At least there's you
And at least there's me
Can we get this back?
Can we get this back?
To how it used to be
After Mello's departure though. All consistency between everyone in the orphanage was broken. This includes Matt and Near. Matt sank into some kind of depression for losing his buddy, Near blames himself for letting Mello go.
6. Fell In Love Without You - Motion City Soundtrack
Last night I fell in love without you
I waved goodbye to that heart of mine beating solo on your lawn
Matt fell in love with Near, without Mello of course xD
BUT THIS IS NOT GOING TO BE A SONG ABOUT PREVIOUS MM RELATIONSHIP! FUCK THOSE SHIPPERS!
7. Dead On Arrival - Fall Out Boy
This is side one
Flip me over
I know I'm not your favorite record
The songs you grow to like never stick at first
So I'm writing you a chorus
And here is your verse
Near's always there for Matt during his ups and downs. But he couldn't help but feel small in comparison to Mello, who was always number one for Matt because they're buddies. He wants Matt to notice him more, rather than come to him in his needs only.
8. Lost In You - Three Days Grace
You try to lie and say I was everything
I remember when I said I'm nothing without you
I'm nothing without you
Somehow I found a way to get lost in you
Let me inside, let me get close to you
Change your mind, I'll get lost if you want me to
Somehow I found a way to get lost in you
Near is a complicated human being. Matt doesn't object to this statement.
9. Franklin - Paramore
Could you remind me of a time when we were so alive?
Do you remember that? Do you remember that?
Could you help me push aside all that I have left behind?
Do you remember that? Do you remember that?
Yeah. After Mello left everything turned gloomy. They turned to each other for comfort. I think this is where it all really begin.
10. Cambridge - Motion City Soundtrack
With visitations from the underwhelmed,
Five years she fears to hold my broken head.
Why were you gone? Why were you gone so long?
She is the reason that I still believe...
Hold my hand,
Where storms are sand.
And sand is said,
To be sad.
This song could fits Matt's feeling when he was left by Mello, or in some AU version in which he survives the Takada incident. His mind, and soul was tortured. And yet no one can see it.The line she is the reason that I still believe refers to...
Yes. Near.
11. Stuck On You - Paramore
I thought I'd drop you easily
But that was not to be
You burrowed like a summer tic
So you invade my sleep and confuse my dreams
Turn my nights to sleepless itch
Stuck on you 'till the end of time
I'm too tired to fight your rhyme
Stuck on you 'till the end of time
you've got me paralyzed
Near couldn't forget Matt, or Mello for that matter (But we'll focus on Matt because this is a Matt/Near fanmix after all). Every night he'd dream of lazy summer days, afternoons in autumn and cold winter nights when they were children. His mind completely stuck on Matt.
12. Feel Like Rain - Motion City Soundtrack
And we feel like rain,
When the words all sound the same,
In the lifeless corners of this empty frame
We love that game, but we never play
'Cause we will lose and we wanna stay
The way we are, the way we've been
For far too long
Kira case took a lot from them. They suffer, they burn, they went mad, yadda yadda yadda. But it's all for the greater good.
13. All I Wanted - Paramore
Think of me, when you're out, when you're out there
I'm begging nice on my knees
And when the world treats you way to fairly
It's a shame I'm a dream
I could follow you to the beginning
Just relive the start
Maybe then we'd remember to slow down
On all of our favorite parts
Can be interpreted both ways. In the end, the only thing they loved most was the feel of being alive in the presence of the other.
...All I wanted was you. Nothing else.
Labels: death note, fanmix, matt/near
Saturday, January 23, 2010
11:58 PM
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My Paper Heart
Please just don't play with me
My paper heart will bleed
This wait for destiny won't do
Be with me please I'll beseech you
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I was gonna share a fanmix I just made, a Matt/Near one at that. But I'm having trouble with the download link. So yeah. I fail. I'll just leave the cover here.
Okay, now: Doujinshi sharing time!
Pairing: L/Light, Mello/Near, Light/Mello, L/Near, L/Mello, Light/Near (yep. It's so confusing)
Rating: Worksafe. AKA NO PR0N. HAHA.
Summary: Family time. Usual stuff. Mello's jealous of Near and Near's jealous of Light, and Light's jealous of... yeah. All possible six pairings in a row. I think it's pretty nice, the story line I mean. Oh yes, AU!
Pairing: None. Maybe one sided Halle/Mello because she's a total pedo for him and one sided Near/Mello. I SAW HINTS OF GEVANNI/NEAR HERE TOO!
Really. I WILL NOT CONSIDER MM AS A PAIRING. NEVER.
Rating: PG
Summary: High school AU. Near's like the class rep and Gevanni's his lackey. And both Ms are BFFs BUT NOT GAY FOR EACH OTHER. And in the end it has a nice fight scene vs. Rod Ross. Fuck yeah!
Pairing: L/Mello
Rating: G. One, chaste kiss only, I swear!
Summary: IDK it's fluff. Seriously, child!Mello is soooo cute! I was like 'AWWWWWWWW and then go 'NAWWWWWW' and go 'AWWWWW' again :D
And another one, though it's not for download...
Made by rubbersoul, who I have to give credits for making Near as awesome as possible. It's for Mello's birthday, can you believe that? Akane made a sad one, something about last birthday or something something.
So yeah. The end of the looong doujin post. Hope you guys will read the ratings first, or the summary at least. Don't want to download some PWP again, right? *grins*
Labels: death note, doujin, fail, fanmix, MATT, matt/near, mello/near, NIA-TAN
8:33 PM
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Burn Baby Burn
Feelings that I can't disguise
And never will be reconciled
Oh something inside has died
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Today was fine. Yesterday I drew Niizuma Eiji! Y'know, from Bakuman. 'Cause he's awesome and I like awesome guys. I won't say no to pretty ones too.
And yesterday, I found some site called 'Husky' or something. It's right here.
Near's a girl. But somewhat slutty I guess. And Mello is wayy to seme! I don't really like man!Mello. I like the girly one :D
 Oh and I downloaded some MN fanmix yesterday too. See? Matt/Near doesn't have any fanmix of any sort :(
It's called 'Pretence, Glances, and Messed Up Chances'.
The cover's pretty, don't you think? I think the art's from Ai Love Love. Because she (?) draws Mello in that easily distinguished way.
The eyes. Look at the eyes first. Then the shape of the face, and the nose, and mouth. Lastly, the hair. Yes, people draws Mello hair differently too.
But Near... Many would draw him pantless (YES PANT-LESS) with his pj tops only. I think it's kinda funny. He truly looks like a kid that way xD
Do you know what I want to do right now? Practice guitar. Maybe some 'Bizarre Love Triangle' or 'Chasing Cars'? Just for future preparation :D
Oh and about that multi chaptered story I did for EF, I did a re-design of the outline, and instead of Natalie killing herself out of insanity - everything was just a dream.
The first part's the same. It begins when Matt found Mihael's body. Then he called Natalie. She fainted.
After the funeral, she saw Mihael. He swore he's gonna make her go through the same things he did. Unfortunately, things were made difficult for him because of Matt.
Four days after Nate and Matt went out, Matt dies in his sleep. Seeing the troubled look on his face Nate concludes Mihael killed him.
Then they got into a fight. Mihael explained why he committed suicide. It's because Nate exclaimed she truly hates Mihael. She said the rivalry came first. He shot back by saying the rivalry was because of them. So yeah, they both realized their lives actually revolved around each other.
Mihael apologized, and said he'd wait for her on the other side - the afterlife. When he reached out his hand to hold Nate's, she wakes up.
Apparently she was still unconscious when she fainted in Mihael's room. Matt was there, but he fell asleep. She wakes him up and glad it was all a dream.
After Matt left, and told her to get ready for the funeral, she still feels something was watching her. From afar of course.
Yeah. Long story short. IDK I think it's pretty exciting. Just as exciting as I got this pic:
Yes. That's M falling asleep in class :DDDD
Labels: death note, fanmix, MELLO-CHAN, mello/near, NIA-TAN, random, site, story
Thursday, January 21, 2010
5:45 PM
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